I know I havent been posting about amonth now..i'm sorry..its just that I'm going alot lately...some god some bad..some..I dont know what to think off..its just damned crappy..seriously,it is.I'm back to working with my mom,with my friends with me..I'm giving tons of freedom now..I've become a NPCC NCO..which is cool but there are tons of responsiblities and also skill which i think I cant handle it..Mr Chaw says I got alot of potential to be a leader but after going through aa leadership course..I dont think I have what it takes..I cant top no.1..I cant even push myself to the limits..I wonder..am I at my limits now?Its scary..I feel so tired but restless u know the feeling?I dont know where to start..but i know one thing..I fear that I'm changing for the worst..nithing to stop me...smething like when spiderman was introduce to symbiot..its the black thingy suit..it feels so powerful..but deep down spiderman feel so scared...he wants it of from him..the only thing that gets it off is music..which is actually true..aint it amazing how great stan leee imperinates spiderman to a person in real life?i got to go..tmr is nco training and this comp sucks ..g2g nite

Ah sorry guys..down with the flu,dunno why..cough till I can taste blood I can taste blood =x..haha..so no mood..have another shopping spree..boy..i gotta stop all this..burning the pockets in my wallet...HOT!!newayz..I bought Voodoo dolls from the "Mini Toons"shop..and also a "nightmare before christmas"handphone strap..emo..lers .


from left:school kid voodoo,bonded love voodoo,"nightmare before chirstmas"handphone straps

hahaz..yeah sian at home so decided every two weeks I'm gonna organise movie saturday for 2e2..which is..on saturday..duh!haiz so sian at home but since my mom started doing her own business..I've become like her accountant or something..run errands and all that typing...sian sia...but atleast I get paid..$30 a week not that bad ah?lol kk buh byes

Hey guys,I'm practically rotting at home with only my ps2 and com to to stop me from going senile..haha,I went jalan raya on tues but I dun feel like talking bout it,but if you do,go to suhaimi's[bloodsugar] blog..he'll tell you the detail.The reason why I dont feel like telling this was because I really dont feel good hanging with the group,it was only when Kamil came along I felt better but never the less,odd...I realise these arent the people I really like to hang around,I'm like from on a different world hanging out with them..wonder if superman ever felt something like this when he was young,hanging with his friends?neways..If you remembered the gal who broke my heart but didnt knew it?well yeah I felt that she's using me.so many times..it seems all so wrong but feels damn good..god,my dreams and hopes seems to shatter slowly and painfully.I have my friends though..few,but still friends..the ones who I trust dearly,who support me.I THANK them..why?I just felt like it..lolx!you know at when I'm bored or tensed up,I'd look at the sky from my com desk,listenin to the music from the media player,watching the stars..you'd be think why would this guy say this suddenly? like i said,I just felt like it hahax..I might be going out on sunday..i'm scared my friends would laugh at me,I had a goofy hair cut yesterday,I'll bet they'll laugh at me..lol thats probably all nights all!buh-byes!

"dude,cant you see that she's -using- you?" I replied "I -know-"and paused for awhile.."its sad isnt it?"