sorry guys, for not updating..stressful week for me.Exams round the corner and it the month of ramadan.,the fasting month.I'm either tired,lazy or cranky,yeah.I've been trying to find a new skin but there arent any suggestion so if you guys know any tell me ok?btw I got some pics of myselfs for those who are just curious who I am..so here come the captions!

"Whatcha looking it?"

Sabri:dude what are you doing?
Gabriel:the ootes are too tight..
Sabri:do you have to act as if your smelling my armpit than?
Gabriel:why are you rasing your hand than dammit!
Sabri:Fadhly's taking a photo*click*shit...

What did I do?You said for me to speak my mind,so I did.I said sorry,you said it "no need" but than you keep continueing and I kept apologiesing and in the end you got angry that I call you something.U twisted my words..You broke my heart and tore them to bits.I did nothing wrong.You said that I was hell bent on getting that hp.Didnt you remember I wanted to buy another hp for $28 but bro gave it to me because he didnt want it when he bought the hp..whose to blame?Was it my fault that I was generous?You think I keep wasting your money.but did you know I have no heart spending them after what the family has been through?I even wore my old bag..but you thought I was siding with those who opposed you.I only said you were agressive not mean,not bad but why did you say I did?Did you know that the world doesnt owe you?why do you read holy books when you act like this?I may not know much but the book also say to be fair and responsible.I know opposing or bad mouthing you mother is wrong,but you told me when young that it takes to clap.Even if I started it,you turned me into this?Did you know all I wanted to do is make you proud?Did you know thats why I struggled to get into 2e2?thats why I became a prefect?but Ive got a question for you mom..did you know that one day that I'll give you misery,or did you had full of hopes when I was born?I thought you had hopes on me but you broke my heart when you said when I grow old and would become like "him"care only for the wife.You said that I'd leave you at the old folks home.You think I would do that to you?but now I think you've poisoned my heart..You said I was useless.Is it fair to me?so your the only one who can make one sided judgements any how?God may be on your side as your the mother but God also lives on rules of justice and love.My dream was to have a good job,give you a comfy home to relax,nothing to worry because I'd handle it.but you shattered both our dreams just like that.It hurts mom,it really does..

to think all I wanted to do was to make you proud of me....i'm sorry to let you down then

sorry for not up dating,things are up and down these days.Trying picking myself up but somewhere I just want to stay down.Just damn tired of listening to my mother nagging and complaints eventhough she means well,tired of my brother being a spoilt brat even though I care for him..I even bought him a cake for his birthday because I forgot his birthday,but there was no thank you at all,nothing,he'd rather watch SI than celebrate his birthday.

I'm sick of doing things for people and dont appreciate me or what I do.I have to do everything something and people dont take notice.

It rained like hell and I liked it but could play because just released from school and I was scared to get my back wet.I really love the rain,makes me forget my misery,another reason I changed my skin,kinda dark compared to my previous one...got a Raxor V3i and that was because my brother who just bought it wanted another handphone..bloody rich kid.I'm just tired of everything I do.

No one's usually there for me,my original friends found new friends and forgot all about me.Mr Chaw has his own life and work.Mom is fighting a war with my uncle..and I'm caught in between of all this,i'm giving advices and all that.But who's giving advice for me and emotional support,barely no one...Life's crappy without friends what do you think?

Today..left school early to be a road marshall for the road safety.you guys know when you were Pri5 and had to go to the road safety and kena suman?heheh our turn to summan people,all thanks to NPCC,boy those kids are funny and energetic.The only part was I had to partner with Karen!!!!!but it is fun seriously,after that had a break..Ms Choing got us coke but had to finish it there..had brain AND teeth freeze haha..come back kena about 23 or more pumping...jia lat..Hell came,not hell but an expression yeap..than kena another 10 pumping.After that had a dressing check..kanina 1 person no spec hook all of us owe 5.. 5 x 12=60 bloody nice.Herman Sir decided to make us do foot drill and pumping and somewhere in between training all of us got back the usual standard.WHOHOO!yeah newayz did tons of drill,finish our 6o pumpings in a very akward way,than change to uniform because some never got the new P.T shirt or never bring their old one in 8 mins..we all hack care arr legs hurt too many things to change anyway so we came ourt later than 8 mins but Herman did nothing..telling u da best =X newayz Raizen gave the bersurai for 5 x hahahahaha well once was my fault,shouted "NP" instead of "GOLF SQUAD" yeap..came back and fell asleep untill 8.dont feel so good right now byes

everyones seems to be invading all my space..Its is soo god damn fustrating.they mess my room,they dont allow me to do what I usually do.Well in short,they're getting on my nerves and trying to show who's bigger among the rest?What am I?Someone whose been elected king only to be stepped on?or am I a kid who people think nows the time to take the advantage of me?People think they have problems,they tell me about it,almost everyday and they expect me to solve their mess...but when I do something wrong,it's all my fault the project sucks?nice so you push all the bloody work to me and than complain how I do it?This is just unbelievable!Oh yeah,there's something called privacy and also the 3 C's and the U:courteous,care,compassion and understand..To think that some people are already 14 and they say hurtful words as if its nothing.I try to do that but it never works because I dont BARE to do so. I know I goof up as well but thats not a reason that you should be making fun of me for days?I know I'm not like the ordinary guys,play soccer,cool and handsome..I know I'd be the last guy you'll ever thought dating because of how I look or how I act:loud,rough and not boyfriend material..My drillings may suck like hell but I've got comitment..well I had ALOT of comitment in the past anyway...the holidays were just a few days breather,nothing else.I got cooped up at home,had to go to sc day camp where I embarrest myself,remedials,projects and all that..the other days were like breathers..short breathers.its a break but not contentful..There were fights everywhere,in myself,within my friends and with my family...most of them seek advice from me..what am I?there is so much anger in me and so much sadness,boredom and mixed feelings in my drawings....off now its late and I got duties to attend to for tomorrow,byes

I'm sorry for not updating the blog..I feel so sick and tired these days even though its the holidays..I'm seriously worned out..theres something on my mind again..two feeling actually hahax but thats another story..theres nothing for me to type but I've been drawing these days so if u want to see it I'd kindy show it to you ^^ I'm kinda tired as it is nite all